365 days… 52 weeks… 12 months… 1 year…
Amber will be ONE YEAR next week! Which means that
I’m a lucky Canadian chick who gets a one year maternity leave I have to go back to work. Which also means that I have to daytime wean sweet little Amber very very quickly because I go back to work on MONDAY!
I’m freaked out – not because I don’t want to go to work. I actually can’t wait to go back because I seriously love my job. I’m totally freaked because I haven’t started weaning her. It doesn’t matter what I put in her cups:
- expressed milk
- cow’s milk
She won’t drink any of it. She has absolutely no interest in a cup, or a bottle, or even food for that matter.
I don’t want her to be sad. I don’t want her to feel abandoned.
You would think I’d be ok with this – I’ve been through this before – with my sweet Brookie (my middle daughter). I had to leave her at daycare cold turkey on her fist birthday – I’m still sad about that. I know that Brooke must have eaten something, and drank a little bit because she was never malnourished, or dehydrated. But then again, Brooke made up for it at night by nursing… all.night.long.
The all night nursing was awful! I’m sure being woken up every two hours also contributed to my depression. I’m so scared to go down that road again. I was so tired, so not myself.